Moving to the Vail Valley has given me endless access to enjoying the mountains. I've been doing a lot of hiking and backpacking to many spectacular alpine lakes and summits that have stunning, 360 degree views. It's been so wonderful to feel grateful each day to be living is such beauty. Another way of enjoying the mountains, which is very popular here, is mountain biking. I use to mountain bike over ten years ago, but switched to road biking when I met my partner. Now that we are back in the mountains, I have found myself back on a mountain bike and enjoying myself immensely, even when I've found myself hiking more than riding.
We joined some friend recentlys in Crested Butte, a small mountain town with a mining history, surrounded by colorful, beautiful mountains and famous for its mountain biking trails. On a prior ride, the weekend before, I realized that by using my breath to relax my mind while riding, I was able to ride through obstacles that were causing my mind to freak out and thus causing me to bail off my bike. Hmmmmm, how many more yoga techniques could I apply to mountain biking?
When we went for our morning ride on Saturday, the trail we started on was a little technical, which for me means difficult. I was falling off like crazy. At first I found my mind saying, "I suck at this, maybe I'm not really in to it. Should I really buy a mountain bike if I never use it because I walk it more than ride it?" It dawned on me that some of my worry and anxiety from the work week was coming into my biking. I told my friend, Ann, who I was riding with about it and immediately I felt myself calming. By being honest with myself and my friend about where I was at mentally, helped improve my skills. I started enjoying the ride more and laughing at myself when I couldn't get past an obstacle. I noticed the spectacular scenery more, the aspens and brush starting to change colors, marking the changing of the seasons. The terrain started to get more mellow and I gained more confidence. Accepting myself helped!
In the afternoon, we went on a great ride that matched my beginner's ability. Towards the latter part of the ride, there was a steep downhill to a river with a nice run out. (At least to me it was steep). As I started to descend, my mind screamed out in sheer terror. Usually when this happens, my reaction is to brake, making me feel like I'm going to flip over my handle bars, so I bail off my bike. Instead, I over road the fear and let go of the brakes. I flew down the hill effortlessly and on to the run out. I whooped for joy, I was so amazed and energized. What a spectacular lesson. In the face of fear, let go, face it head on and be met with pure joy. How many times do we try to control fear, only to have things feel worse? This happens to me often. But in those moments when I'm willing to let go and face the fear, I can't think of a time when I haven't been met with a positive outcome and renewed faith in myself. Have the courage to just let go...
We joined some friend recentlys in Crested Butte, a small mountain town with a mining history, surrounded by colorful, beautiful mountains and famous for its mountain biking trails. On a prior ride, the weekend before, I realized that by using my breath to relax my mind while riding, I was able to ride through obstacles that were causing my mind to freak out and thus causing me to bail off my bike. Hmmmmm, how many more yoga techniques could I apply to mountain biking?
When we went for our morning ride on Saturday, the trail we started on was a little technical, which for me means difficult. I was falling off like crazy. At first I found my mind saying, "I suck at this, maybe I'm not really in to it. Should I really buy a mountain bike if I never use it because I walk it more than ride it?" It dawned on me that some of my worry and anxiety from the work week was coming into my biking. I told my friend, Ann, who I was riding with about it and immediately I felt myself calming. By being honest with myself and my friend about where I was at mentally, helped improve my skills. I started enjoying the ride more and laughing at myself when I couldn't get past an obstacle. I noticed the spectacular scenery more, the aspens and brush starting to change colors, marking the changing of the seasons. The terrain started to get more mellow and I gained more confidence. Accepting myself helped!
In the afternoon, we went on a great ride that matched my beginner's ability. Towards the latter part of the ride, there was a steep downhill to a river with a nice run out. (At least to me it was steep). As I started to descend, my mind screamed out in sheer terror. Usually when this happens, my reaction is to brake, making me feel like I'm going to flip over my handle bars, so I bail off my bike. Instead, I over road the fear and let go of the brakes. I flew down the hill effortlessly and on to the run out. I whooped for joy, I was so amazed and energized. What a spectacular lesson. In the face of fear, let go, face it head on and be met with pure joy. How many times do we try to control fear, only to have things feel worse? This happens to me often. But in those moments when I'm willing to let go and face the fear, I can't think of a time when I haven't been met with a positive outcome and renewed faith in myself. Have the courage to just let go...
Whenever I try to conquer my fear without faith or confidence, the fear comes back to me....I need to keep telling myself not to lose the faith that encourages me to observe or laugh at the circumstance.....when I failed to be an observer, I found myself overprotecting my persona as a GOOD friend, wife, or mom, none of which is tureself.....
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